RED'S WRITING

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CURELTY OF JUDGEMENT



Heart clenched, flaming is hotter now.

I wondered, why?

Why would i be a sinful,

Those actions were foolish!

I am now weeping,

I may beg, get on my pained knees.

My legs shook.

Why would I be sinful?

Those actions were foolish!

I stood behind the gates of the heavens,

I asked, why?

Why am I so sinful?

My heart clenched, flaming in my mouth.

I got on my knees and begged.



Those actions are foolish,

My mouth foamed with blood,

Blood dripping down my chin,

Eyes watching me,

They are around me!

My hands bleeding,

My fingers rotting,

My wrist laying loosely

And i screamed,

Why am I so sinful!

The eyes watching me,

They are making fun of me.



Please save me,

I picked up the knife.



Please save me,

I picked up the knife.

And I held this knife to my chest.

Must I say, may I give you my blood?

Hovering above my arms, I asked,

Must I give you my blood?



All my honest,

All my truthful,

All my regretful words.

Get dismissed!

Take a good look at me, and exactly why?

I made a mistake, I made a mistake, we are no robots.

We are no robots.

Robots have oil.

We had blood.

Hence, we are no robots!



I made it right.

You gave me no judgement.

I wondered, what do you want from me?

You barely said anything.

You are cruel!

You are the source of pain filling.



May I remind you of someone?

May I remind you of someone?



You gave me no answer,

I said,

You are pushing me further.

You could not care.

You could not shake my hand.

You could not fix my bleeding.



I am lovin’

Thinking about our old times together before I made a fatal mistake.

It cost us our relationship.

I fixed it,

Or I tried to.

I was dismissed.

By your heartless words.

Must I say, I wish to return to the past?



I

WISH

I

HAD

NO

A

SUCH

MISTAKE

THAT

HARMED

US!



And the people all around us,

I stared down the cliff,

I wondered,

Would you care if I died?





I do not think so,

Or, do I think so?

Well, you have not given me any evidence of the judgment!



I stood by the cliff,

I asked the heavens,

The gate of the heavens,

Why am I so sinful?



I begged,

I begged myself to not.

I leaped out of the cliff,

I waited for you to watch me.



There are eyes all around me,

They are cruel!

They had no empathy!

Must I weep!

Please, save me.



Please, save me from my mindless sins.

I stared up at you.



You

Stood

There

You

Looked

Empty



Why do I remind you of someone?

Please, save me.



Please save me.



From the cruelty of your judgement!



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YOU ARE NO THAT OF A SUN



I felt the vibrations of your voice,

Wondering where you came from.

Did the heavens send you down the ground,

Or was it simply pure luck?



Your fingers warmer as a sun,

Your grin beamed like a sun

And your presence made me need

LIGHTNESS.



You are truly a sun,

The surrounding around you lit up like a sun,

You are no ordinary.

You are no meant for living,

You are meant to be an angel.



I reckoned,

What may you do to us next?

The vibrations of your voice pulled us apart.

The behind of your waking,

Dark and dull.

I questioned, you never replied.



I questioned, you never replied,

You never replied to my texts, calls and voice.

There, your voice disappeared.



Then you disappeared.



I saw your wings turning grey.

Was I so blind?

Blindly trusting you?

Your wings now dull, dragging on the trails of ground.



Your face is dissolving.

Your eyes are blurry.

Were they black or blue?!



Your fingers, your every touches are poison,

Your every words, is clever maintained,

Your brain, stronger as ever.



You dragged me, grinning,

Then you took me for money and love,

Then you left.

Why would you do such a thing, anyways?

I am hurting, but I am numb.



I am numb but I am not unharmed.



Your fake wings, your dimmed hole,

I am bound to be doomed by your false presence.



I

AM

BOUND

TO

BE

DOOMED

CAUS’

YOU

HAVE

FOOLED

ME



You are an infamous jester!

I am no a king,

I am loaded with money and love

You needed survival!

I needed you!

Why did you threw me away,

And going ahead ruined my heart!



Your twisted intelligent tongue,

Your little cheeky presence,

All because I blindly trusted you!





You were my sun,

Now, you are my fading moon.



You are no that of a sun,

You are that of a moon that drifted away from us,

Humanity.



We human are slaves,

All you solely wanted is survival,

Nothing about impressing to death!



So, your disappearance marked a bloody stab.

On my already wounded heart.



I thought you were genuine,

And in reality, you took advantage of my heart.



Your twisted tongue is so clever.



That I even wondered, were you even sent down by the heavens.

Were you no true an angel but,

A human that felt the same pain as us?



Your fake wings, your dull hola, your dimmed grin.

All of it made sense.



YOU

ONLY

WANTED

LIVING

AND

I

WANTED

YOU.



Now, tell me, are you that of a sun?



Or are you that of a moon?



Or are you a to be not fooled jester?



Who played with my heart for what you will gain.

I am no a king,

I did not sit on a throne.



Yet your playful tongue came along and played with my willingly to treat you.



You really are not that of a sun.

You have fooled me.

You did not stay.

You gained me and ran away.



I will forever remember you like crows.



Until you return again.